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No One But A Survivor

I was raped when I was 19 year’s old.

I became pregnant from being raped.

I had an abortion as a result of being raped.

Today of all days, I boldly admitted this.  Today, I was unapologetic and unafraid.  Today, the comments made by Republican Senate Nominee Todd Akins that “Victims of Legitimate Rape Don’t Get Pregnant” were heard around the world and because of the blatant ignorance of his remarks,  I reiterate:

NO ONE except an actual rape survivor can comprehend the horror and terror of being  raped.

I am personally offended by the way politicians are using rape, and abortion in the cases of rape, as a discussion platform for election with no regard to how their comments impact actual survivors.

Why are rape survivors treated as if this horrific act deserves no sensitivity, respect or dignity?  Why is this issue and the choices surrounding this issue thrown around with no regard to the hundreds of thousands of us who have actually been victimized and had to make these excruciatingly difficult choices?

Try living with the fact that while you slept soundly, you were overpowered and violated in a way that is only experienced in the darkest, cruelest of  nightmares.  Then after trying to push that horror of epic proportion out of your mind and your life, you come to the realization that it’s not over:  you’re pregnant from the rape.

The punishment a survivor puts themselves through is bad enough:  the shame, the guilt, the fear and self-loathing are intense and constant. It’s like chains are bolted instantly to your ankles the second the terror begins and you spend a lifetime trying to overcome this violation of not only your body – but your thought process as well.  No one gets to casually and irresponsibly comment on that – No One.

The Speakers Bureau at The Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network (RAINN) contacted me to schedule an interview with Metro New York, a newspaper that publishes in New York City, Philadelphia & Boston.  The  article made the front page of the national online site. People like Senate Nominee Todd Akins and those who support this biologically uninformed and denigrating thought process should not be allowed anywhere near the decision-making process for the rights of people of this country.

It’s this insensitivity to rape victims on a national platform that propels me to use my voice and speak out in support of survivors everywhere … and I assure you I won’t stop until this madness ceases.

In solidarity,
~ Renee

Change & Transformation

There is truly something magical about Autumn in New York, isn’t there? It’s peak season here now and the leaves on the trees are just bursting with color … change is in the air – you can just smell it!

Autumn is by far is my most favorite season! Mostly because I am very visual.  I love photography and for the last month, my camera has been consistently draped around my neck! I am astonished at how trees I have passed by every morning for the last six months, have slowly transformed into vibrant masterpieces of color that demand your attention. I cannot imagine living in a city where I could not witness such a brilliant, stimulating display!

I celebrated my birthday in New York City and it was a perfect combination of gorgeous blue sky and warm, crisp temperatures! Walking through the Farmer’s Market in Union Square, taking a horse-drawn carriage ride in Central Park and riding the Staten Island Ferry at night – all made this passing of another year incredibly special.

October represents change, a transformation process.  We see it in the leaves on the trees.  And just as quick as they change, they fall to the ground and the trees are barren. I usually assess on my birthday where I have been in the last year (physically, emotionally and spiritually) and where I think I should be going.  Some years, there’s been a lot of questions and unknowns.  This year feels more certain, I have a plan and confidently know how to execute it. I always try to step a little more out of my comfort zone and do something different, give a little more to those in need and open my heart to love a little deeper.

I’ve decided this year is the Year of the Dance!  I’ve gotten back into belly dancing, which I love, and have met some phenomenal dancers who are very groovy ~ I am an eager student! Emotionally, the breaks in my heart have healed over more in the last year…and that progress “feels” good.  And spiritually, I have never felt more in line with fulfilling my purpose in life than ever before through The Clean Slate Diaries.

Here in New York, change is everywhere. My life is being transformed every day and I embrace it.  Just like the leaves that have stepped out of the shadows and boldly shown their true colors ~ I comfortably release the grip from the branch, let go and float softly to the next resting place on the journey.

Love & Peace ~

Renee

 

Sneak Peak




It’s less than a week until The Clean Slate Diaries and it’s amazing to feel the positive vibe, energy and excitement surrounding this event! Rehearsal was this weekend and we’ve assembled such an amazing collection of diverse artists, dancers and speakers – you’ll be moved spiritually, visually and emotionally!

Based on the outpouring of support from the Central New York community, and from as far away as California and Oregon, it’s evident that this type of honor and recognition for survivors of Rape, Incest & Sexual Assault is long overdue.

Well, the wait is finally over!  Bring your friends, bring your loved ones, or come by yourself – but please come.  You won’t be alone. We are all here.  We are the people you work with, we are your neighbors and we are the people you pass in the grocery store.  There will be healing here.  There will be love and support here. There will be friendship, peace and unity here.

Here’s a quick preview of what you will see and hear at the The Clean Slate Diaries on Saturday, April 23 at May Memorial!  Be sure to RSVP to our Facebook page!  You won’t want to miss this evening of profound inspiration and empowering performances!

Watch on YouTube

In solidarity, love & peace ~

Renee